I can’t think of anything worse. This picture of Ben holding dad while he does his best to suck up one lung full of air; but he just can’t. The sound of him squeaking, choking. It’s scarier than the sound of uncle Tyrene’s driller made. This watch! Why? Such an irony that I have a collection of them but I just can’t buy time. Dad!Wish I could stop time like the needles stop when you pluck the screw out.
Is it that your train is about to reach its station or about to crash? But it has all of our lives tired on the track too Dad. Are we limited to death? Oh why oh why???
They’ve always asked me to look at the brighter side of things. No! There is nothing colorful side of this. No!
No I’m not colorblind I know the world is black and white
I know that this is the ultimate truth. One day, my time will come as well. But, I cant imagine the thought of you lying in the wooden chest. The shade of your rested eyes can never kill this fire in my heart. But I know dad. This is real life hitting me hard. Its not a 90 min drama screen play. I will, Dad, I will.
Try to keep an open mind But just can’t sleep on this tonight
Dear God, I know I’ve always pleaded to you in my worst of days. Never have I bowed to you or accreted you when I had everything. I didn’t thank you when the awards hit my cabinet or for the platinum record. But I don’t want any of them now. I just want it all to stop, please Lord. What’s use of this guitar when the hands that gifted me my first were buried six feet under? Please lord, Please.
Stop this train, I wanna get off and go back home again.
I never signed up for this. I’m only 27 right now. Dad always insisted on me getting married. He always asked me to get settled. I still remember how I boasted him of my concert schedule when me asked me to be stable. Sorry Dad! Yes I am moving too fast. But I don’t want any of this.
I can’t take this speed is moving in I know I can’t But, honestly, will someone stop this train
Dave and Ben might not have everything they want but they do have everything to be alive. Look at me. I’m weaning alone in my mansion. What worth is this money if it can’t buy happiness. This is too much. When they were singing you “Happy Birthday.” On your 55th birthday, I was hitting my guitar in some foreign lands screaming some lyrics I don’t mean in front of some foreign people I have no idea about. What have I done Lord!
Don’t know how else to say it Don’t to see my parents go
What if Ma goes away like you will. And Dave and Ben and Cherry. What will I do? Searching for love in someones supple skin? Warm my heart by rubbing with a stranger under a blanket? I too will become ash someday. With every spin of the globe comes everyones time. I too will die alone.
One generations length away From fighting life out on my own
Dear Lord, please don’t do this. Take everything and unwind time. Let days be nights and nights be days. But make be 6 again. Please.
Stop this train I wanna get off and go back home again I can’t take this speed its moving in I know I can’t But, honestly, will someone stop this train
I think I’m getting a grasp of this. This time, may be an illusion but change and death is not. I will get old not of time but of change. I will die not of time but of death, My skin will get wrinkles not my time but of my age. But its all so scary. How am I supposed to react like my own age when it’s the first time I have been in my age. How am I supposed to live my age? Numbers that define me increase every year, where I lie to start again but that’s all crap.
So scared of getting older, I’m only good at being youg So I play the numbers game to find my way to that life has just begun
I still remember when I freaked out about celebrating my last birthday. I knew that you knew that I panicked not of my recording sessions but of my increasing age. I still remember the talk on the phone that night
Had a talk with my old man Said, “Help me understand” He said, “Turn 68, you’ll renegotiate Don’t stop this train, Don’t for a minute Change the place you’re in Don’t think I couldn’t ever understand I tried my hand John, honestly, we’ll never stop this train”
I think you were consoling yourself rather than me because you saw all of it. All of the good and the bad. Even the worst. But you never felt best. We never thanked you for all that you’ve given us. We never thought how you forgave us all the time. How you never questioned out trust. I’m sorry dad. I’ll do my best to keep you happy Dad. The end is near but it is not here yet. We might have some intricate time but I promise to stay with you when it’s all over. Because Dad
Once in a while, when it’s good It’ll feel like it should And they’re all still around And you’re still safe and sound And you don’t miss a thing ‘Til you cry when you’re driving away in the dark
And I’ll stay there, holding your hands, but you’re already gone. I’ll try to hold the tears that are already falling. I’ll clench my fist to hold time but it won’t. I’ll try to think of all the runs and chases we had. How you came to my first show. I’ll search for my Dad in that body, but I won’t find any. But you’re not dead Dad. You’re still alive. In all of us. In all of our hearts and mind. I know. Because we share the same heart. I am a part of you. You shared my first cry.
And I’ll go back home
Singing, “Stop this train I wanna get off and go home again I can’t take this speed it’s moving in I know I can’t ‘Cause now I see I’ll never stop this train
–लालमोहन
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